January 7, 2017

Jan. 7, 2017

Posted in Uncategorized at 6:42 pm by peachesteaberry

I have fallen off the wagon so to speak. My prayer life has gone back to what it was before the new year began. So today I start again.

I asked God to send ice for my 60th birthday. It’s in 4 days. We now have around 6+ inches of snow. It is so beautiful. Thank you Lord.

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January 4, 2017

Jan. 3, 2017

Posted in Uncategorized at 12:30 am by peachesteaberry

Today is starting better. I got up at a reasonable hour and I have done some more reading in the retreat book. Today its talking about how everything around us belongs to God and how we are mere stewards of creation. It hit me that my body belongs to God in a real way. I am merely its’ steward. My body is a “trust”. My gluttony and other choices / flaws are actual abuses of His property and I will be punished for them. I owe Him “legal” restitution for those abuses. Maybe “lawful” would be a better term. I’ve always know this, but reading it today made it visceral. I have pride issues with the idea that my independence is an illusion. I belong to God. I am His property. I have no rights independent of Him. I have the same flaw that Lucifer had. May God grant me the grace to overcome it better than he did.

 

January 3, 2017

Jan. 2, 2017

Posted in Uncategorized at 3:57 am by peachesteaberry

Well, today didn’t go too well. I did a little bit of the first hour and missed my office entirely. I have no excuse. I will need to discipline myself much more carefully as regards online gaming and reading.

I found a site, ambient-mixer.com which has background sounds for you to listen to while you write. I’m currently in Rivendell listening to celtic harpĀ  and birdsong.

 

January 2, 2017

Jan. 01, 2017

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:36 am by peachesteaberry

Solemnity of the Holy Mother of God

Today I had my first retreat day. It went very well. I love the writings in this book and found them very thought provoking. I recognized a tendency towards extreme pride where God is concerned that I am going to have to work on overcoming.

I only made it through one hour but I spread it over the entire day so I found myself being frequently brought back to God and spiritual matters. I think that helped me resist the temptation to live in a fantasy world the way I have for the past almost 60 years. I didn’t resist all day, but I had several successes so I want to continue scattering my efforts throughout the day to encourage myself to return to spiritual matters.

I managed to say my office as required today even though vespers was awfully late and night office was right after it. Still it is more than I’ve done in years. I enjoyed the psalms from pg. 707 which used to be my least favorites. That goes to show that cultivating the right attitude can make all the difference.

I also picked up my church calendar and made notes as to various saints that I want to celebrate. Our Lady of Mount Carmel, St. Theresa of Avila and St. Therese the little flower are all on Sundays this year. I need to make sure how to handle that but I believe Sunday takes precedence.

Lent starts early this year, so I want to search out some good recipes for Fridays. I want to really enjoy Lent and try to keep from getting sick at the same time. I want to start exercising on weekdays and watch my diet. My tendency towards laziness, sloth and gluttony needs to at least be an effort this year.