January 2, 2017

Jan. 01, 2017

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:36 am by peachesteaberry

Solemnity of the Holy Mother of God

Today I had my first retreat day. It went very well. I love the writings in this book and found them very thought provoking. I recognized a tendency towards extreme pride where God is concerned that I am going to have to work on overcoming.

I only made it through one hour but I spread it over the entire day so I found myself being frequently brought back to God and spiritual matters. I think that helped me resist the temptation to live in a fantasy world the way I have for the past almost 60 years. I didn’t resist all day, but I had several successes so I want to continue scattering my efforts throughout the day to encourage myself to return to spiritual matters.

I managed to say my office as required today even though vespers was awfully late and night office was right after it. Still it is more than I’ve done in years. I enjoyed the psalms from pg. 707 which used to be my least favorites. That goes to show that cultivating the right attitude can make all the difference.

I also picked up my church calendar and made notes as to various saints that I want to celebrate. Our Lady of Mount Carmel, St. Theresa of Avila and St. Therese the little flower are all on Sundays this year. I need to make sure how to handle that but I believe Sunday takes precedence.

Lent starts early this year, so I want to search out some good recipes for Fridays. I want to really enjoy Lent and try to keep from getting sick at the same time. I want to start exercising on weekdays and watch my diet. My tendency towards laziness, sloth and gluttony needs to at least be an effort this year.


December 31, 2016

Dec. 31, 2016

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:41 pm by peachesteaberry

Well, it is the last day of the year and I have the beginnings of a spiritual plan. I am going to use the various retreat books that I have to spend most of the year in a home based retreat.

I am starting today with a 15 day intense Jesuit based Ignatian retreat. The book I am using is titled: The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius of Loyola: 15 day retreat in order by day & hour (illustrated). It’s by St Ignatius of Loyola & Rolf Jansen. You have 3 considerations to make the day before you start. Another of my books, The Thirty-Day Retreat in the Carmelite Tradition by Ivan Cormac Marsh, O.Carm. gives a brief talk about spiritual journaling so I intend to try to journal every day.

I haven’t made a decision on what books I’ll use for my spiritual reading. I have so many good ones to choose from. Naturally I’ll have whatever book we use for our Carmelite classes as well. I am leaning towards one of my books on St. Joseph for February in preparation for his month of devotion in March. I would like to reread at least one of my books by St. Elizabeth of the Trinity in case Mary Moore has me teach a class this year. Add to that one book by Cantalamessa and maybe a reread of one of St. Theresa of Avila & St. John of the Cross’ books to get a better grounding in Carmelite spirituality.

I am interested in writing a retreat book based on St. Elizabeth of the Trinity. I’d like to use this year to learn what makes a good retreat book from my experiences. I don’t expect to get started on it this year but I’d like to get a format / outline done. I also like the idea of doing a book along the lines of St. Benedict’s Toolbox, a  book for Benedictine oblates in post Christian nations. I think there is a hunger for spirituality that our Carmelite charism could speak to with these books. Maybe this is a way to respond to my writing inclination and whatever my vocation might be. Perhaps I can have enough study done to actually start writing for Camp Nano or Nano itself in November. That would be wonderful.

January 2, 2016

Jan. 01, 2016

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:18 am by peachesteaberry

Well, it’s been a few months and here I am again. I am going to try to post at least one time a week on one of these three blogs. I imagine that the stories blog, Realms & Dreamscapes will, get the fewest posts since I seldom write. I can’t even promise to do much writing. However this is a start.

October 17, 2015

October 16, 2015

Posted in Uncategorized at 1:18 am by peachesteaberry

Nano is fast approaching. I hope to get some prep work done on Kiss of Death before November hits. I’d love to actually reach 50k this time. I need to redo the entire plot, weed out what doesn’t fit and then start again.

I have gained more weight. I hit 257 this month. I know I need to kick sugar and carbs to the curb and put more veggies and fruit in my diet. I just have to be so careful or I wind up sick on a daily basis. I suspect I need a high protein diet. That seems to cause the least amount of issues. I have enough chicken in the freezer atm and a nice pork butt. I need some brats and a bit of hamburger or turkey for Mexican dishes. I want to go to the lowes foods down the road and see what they have available. Michelle says she likes it a lot.

Fall is here and I am feeling the urge to crochet with all the wet weather we’ve been having thanks to the hurricane off the coast. I picked up the oct. issues of my crochet magazines and found a few things I’d like to try. I still haven’t finished my hairpin lace scarves. Too lazy to weave the ends in so far!

January 15, 2015

Lost in the dark

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:32 pm by peachesteaberry

It is January 2015. I have just turned 58. As we entered the dying of the year I turned away in a definite manner from Him who loves me. I acted out of fear and now it is fear that holds me back from a return to the warmth of the Son. I am afraid to trust Him. Afraid of what He might demand of me in the confessional and what the consequences of my action might be.

The consequences could be serious. Homelessness, poverty and even possible imprisonment. No one who knows me or observes my life would expect that I might be facing such things. My life looks so self assured. They don’t see my brain scurrying in futile circles trying to find a way to escape the consequences and yet still return. I know deep down it is futile. I know I need to accept what lies ahead. But fear holds me motionless. I can only beg for pity and mercy in the darkness as I writhe in misery.

March 20, 2014

book recomendation

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:21 pm by peachesteaberry

I, too, am using lent to learn more about St. Joseph. I am reading a kindle book called, Joseph the man who raised Jesus, by Gary Caster. It has only been reviewed once and that reader apparently hated it. Perhaps because information about Joseph was not served up on a platter. In this book you learn about Joseph by seeing the influence he had on Jesus himself. You have to actually make an effort to recognize his influence, but for my part I am finding it worth while so I thought I would recommend it to you.

January 7, 2014

2014 new projects

Posted in Uncategorized at 12:11 am by peachesteaberry

I have joined a fb group that is studying the church’s social justice documents over the course f a year. It started today and I expect to learn a lot.

I have also signed up for a 90 day gospel reading group via email. I am already behind but I can play catch up this weekend when I have the house to myself. I’ll consider it a birthday treat. The commentaries on that one are also very enlightening.


July 31, 2013

blog inspiration

Posted in Uncategorized tagged at 4:10 pm by peachesteaberry

Ok, it’s been ages since I have posted anything. It is my own fault. I have been incredibly lazy, slothful and just plain apathetic.

The good news is that I have run across an incredibly inspiring blog.


It is written from the view of a monastic in the world. As a secular religious I found this delightful and inspiring. I have been browsing her site today. I would love to use her efforts as a guideline or inspiration someday and create a Carmelite website in a similar vein. Thank you my dear for making your efforts available to us.

My white shawl/lapghan is now done. it is a lapghan for sure. It’s very warm and I look forward to using it this fall. Maybe I’ll take it with me when I go on retreat. I always freeze at Avila retreat center.

The purple aurora shawl has not progressed a stitch!  However I now have a striped shawl in Tunisian, a striped cowl in a heavy wavy yarn that I love called maypole which is also done in Tunisian, a pair of fingerless gloves over half done and being ignored because I hate working in back loop only, a headband just barely started and a few other projects in various stages. My Tunisian studies are coming along. I have learned twisted single and twisted knit stitches. I even did a swatch of mixing Tunisian and regular crochet in a single piece. I loved it. It would make a great shawl. It’s called failed crochet I think, on a youtube video.

We are studying the beatitudes and the soliloques of Theresa of Avila in Carmelite classes. I have agreed to teach the last beatitude, Blessed are those who suffer and are persecuted for righteousness sake, for the kingdom of heaven is theirs. I have a copy of a conference on that beatitude. I will be doing some internet searches and drawing from other sources such as Raniero Cantelamessa’s book on the beatitudes as well. That particular beatitude seems very timely in our current age when more Christians are being martyred than during the reigns of Nero and Diocletian combined. I am sure I will find plenty to draw from. I have subscribed to a facebook site called sharia revealed that has been very informative too. It is rather graphic and exposes current efforts against Christians throughout the world, including in my country. I had no idea that Christians had been murdered in my own country as recently as 4 years ago. May Our Lord and Our Lady with the entire communion of saints, most especially those who died for the faith, intercede for me that I may speak on this beatitude in a way that edifies and inspires my community in their journey of faith.

March 16, 2013

March 16th, 2013

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:02 pm by peachesteaberry

I had such good intentions when I redistributed my writings and elected to make this blog my spirituality and crochet blog. I haven’t touched it since. Lent is well underway, we have had our papal conclave and I haven’t written a thing. Mea culpa. Lent has been a mixed bag. I have prayed for my adopted cardinal daily, and am still in the middle of  a novena for the pope. I have loved reading and listening to videos of our new papa. He has such a sense of back to basics faith. I am looking forward to seeing what direction  he takes the Church in. I also hope that Benedict will be able to devote much effort to producing more writings now that he is retiring to the monastic life. He has such a gift with the written word.

I am somewhere between 1/2 and 2/3  finished with my purple prayer shawl. It is an aurora shawl. It will be my first completed shawl  for the church group. The white one shows every sign of turning into a single person  blanket. It also has a very wide and thick area from my first effort at changing balls of yarn. The second one went much better. I wove it into a dc at the beginning of a row. weaving the ends in, was a pain, but at least I don’t have such  a visible mistake this time. I have been learning Tunisian stitches in class. I love Tunisian. I am expecting amazon to deliver two hooks, sizes L and M/N before Wednesday next week. Everything I have is too small at the moment. In class I borrow Marty’s size L to practice with. So far I can do the simple stitch, the knit stitch and I’m so so with the purl stitch. I want to learn the puff stitch so I can use the new yarn I got to make me a scarf. I love the pattern  and it looks like it will be very warm. I also picked up some lovely blue multicolor yarn that I am looking for a pattern to use with it. I bought 5 skeins which gives me around 1300 yds. Unfortunately every pattern I fall in love with calls for either much less or much more yarn than that.

I think  this may be a busy week for me. I have class on Monday, I believe this Tuesday is our prayer shawl meeting and I am going to try to make my day of recollection on Thursday. At least I won’t need to go to the grocery store. I stocked up for the month. I picked up a free marian book from amazon yesterday. It just came out. I hope it will be a good one. the Catholic spiritual direction book  club is taking suggestions for their next book. right now they are doing one of dan  burke’s books on spiritual direction. I liked several of the suggestions. I am hoping for either Theresa of avila’s Way of Perfection or De Montfort’s True Devotion. With our new pope, a marian book might be in  keeping with the direction he may take us.

February 10, 2013

Update: feb.10, 2013

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:07 pm by peachesteaberry

I have copied the creative writing posts from here into realms and dreamscapes. From here on out, this will be my spirituality journal and daily update combined. R&D will bef my creative writing efforts, epsecially for nanos, but also for my books. I haven’t decided about Whispers in the dark yet. Maybe I’ll use it for world building and book developement stuff. PT may also get some crochet stuff since that is one of my undertakings and it is for the prayer shawl group in the end which is a spiritual endeavor.

Ash Wednesday is in three days. I can hardly wait. Fr. Eric had a great sermon today about what lent is really for. It’s not about the body so much as it is about the spirit and our relationship with the Lord. He pointed out how the music gets softer and the flowers go away and the statues get covered up to take us further into the desert for an intimate experience with God. I am reading a book on the spiritual exercises of st. ignatius. I would like to make them for the lenten season. I tried the imaginitive meditation it describes for the rosary the other day and it worked really well.

I finally got to give my carmelite class on Elijah this month. It went over quite well. We had a few minutes of discussion at the end about his personality and how his experience on Mt. Carmel reveals his rather wicked sense of humor. I suggested that we do a document of the church for May when we’re done with the current saints list. I hope we’ll do Dominum et Vivificantem by JPII. My other suggestions are Fides et Ratio, Veritatas Spendor, Gaudium et Spes or Apostolicam Actuositatem. Yes, I love encyclicals, can you tell?

Our day of recollection is next month. I may not be going. I would not get back to durham early enough to take the saturday train. Kathy wouldn’t be able to take me on sunday. If her friends are not available I will have to miss it this year. However, Thursday is a full day of exposition of the Blessed Sacrament. I could go to church that day instead and make a day of retreat. There’s a bench outside under the tree where I could eat lunch. The church has a bathroom. There’s confession from five to six. Mass is at 7am and 8:45am. Benediction at 9:15am. Definitely do-able.

I must remember that the catholic writer’s guild has a sunday evening chat at 9pm tonight. I want to start listening to them. I was going to attend their online confrence but due to unforseen circumstances, it has been canceled. rats. rats and toadstools. I hope to learn a lot of new ideas for writing as a catholic fiction author. I want to encorporate my faith and the catholic worldview into my fantasy writings. It has been a real challenge so far. It’s especially hard since I want to appeal to modern readers who are currently enjoying the witch, vampire and angel paranormal / occult styles of fantasy. With the hostility that modern society displays towards the church in the real world I am wondering how to present the faith in a way that won’t automatically send potential readers running.

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